A few days ago, I overcame this cycle that I thought I’d never be able to come out of. And I mean, I can’t really escape who I am, but the decisions that I make along the way now are crucial. I can’t suppress my emotions for a long period of time… I did it in the first place because someone told me to. That did nothing but destroy me. I’m an expressful being, a problem solver, and compassionate. I’m sentimental, it’s just me. It doesn’t mean I like to be sad or any of that psychological bs. I was made this way, and although you have a choice on how to carry yourself… for as long as I can remember, I’ve always been this way. But hey, I’m really happy where I stand. I passed a lot of pain, for every moment that hurt me, because I passed it, that’s what made me a stronger person. I didn’t need to look for strength, it shows all on it’s own. This isn’t anything towards anyone, this is about me. I’m okay with being alone, not having a boyfriend. For the longest time, I never let myself heal so I felt trapped, empty. I thought what hurt me the most could also replace the pain again; Love. How did I gain the consciousness to finally move forth? This strange feeling………. I guess it was just time. I’ve never felt like this, which is great. I feel relieved, not so worried. I miss me, myself, and I. I really do. I’m really focused on my future and what I want now. It’s not going to be the same, I’m not going to put up with anything that’ll get in my way. Love really is patient, I get it now. And I really don’t mind waiting because who I’ll settle with will have the very best of me. I do love someone, but nothing between us will be forced. I’m not waiting for much because everything will fall into place in it’s own way. I’m glad that I’m saying this for myself. You hear all sorts of things from people, but until you see it for what it is yourself, it means that much more, it hits you that much harder, the view is clearer. Maybe I just have a good feeling altogether. With every bit of feeling left for the past, I want to let go. I’ll tell you, because with those words, the feelings will leave and dissolve into thin air. I’m good and I’m gone for what’s to be the best. 

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5. tkazuoh said: yay! you’re a good person shin. follow what you believe in. =) come to hawaii! nao xP hehe
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